How do I explain what it is that I feel the Lord is doing within me? I mean, there is certainly a moving, a realigning, a reasserting of the ministry of the Lord Jesus Christ within me and I believe will also be manifested through me as well.
We have been on the shelf for a rather lengthy and extended period of time. Yet, all of a sudden there is once again, a fresh resurgence of the prophetic within me as well as a fresh leadership dimension awakening up within me. This is all serves to make doing what I need to do, each and every day, to continue to pay the bills, all that much more difficult. I know that for now, however, I must keep doing it but my heart is less and less into it. The Lord knows.
There is the expectation that the Lord is going to re-release me to move out again in the ministry for which he has chosen me, yet, only He knows when, where, and how, that will take place.
The Lord’s ways are passed finding out, unless He reveals them to us. Though I still remain at a loss as to what all these last six, going on seven years are and have been all about, I continue to rejoice in the fruitful faithfulness of our Lord and Savior, Christ Jesus. All I know is that it has been His season for us, and that has been enough, yet, not at all easy.
This AM in prayer, the Lord gave me this text: Isa 60:1, which says, “Arise, shine; for your light has come! And the glory of the Lord is risen upon you.” This text came with a re-release of an intense freedom in the prophetic. As a result there was a sudden joy and expectancy of the Lord for today’s church service. While I had no freedom to minister today, as this is a new church for us, I shared with the Pastor all that the Lord had shown me regarding the service which he received and the Lord confirmed, in part anyway, during and after the service.
While there was nothing new in what I saw and heard, or how I saw and heard it, or experienced of it in the Spirit of the Lord, there was still a freshness that came with it, all for which I am and was very excited about. However, as I have said, I haven’t yet been released to move freely in this new church. Therefore I am not to move prophetically until he, the Pastor, releases me. In hind sight, this was to be true even when one of the church staff asked me to pray for someone dear to them. I initially resisted saying that until I had permission from the Sr Pastor I would not step out. However, I was eventually persuaded to do so anyway, only to be chided later by the Holy Spirit for stepping out in ministering to this person without the Pastor’s permission. Let me just say clearly that I was wrong to do so, even if the staff assured me that it was alright. I knew there was no personal ambition involved for me in doing so, however, I most certainly knew better.
When you are not in your metron but in someone else’s, no matter how anointed you are, or how much you have seen, heard or whatever your office is, gifting is and or even how much the situation seems to confirm what the Lord had revealed earlier, you are not simply free to minister to those within another’s metron/field of ministry. I believe that fields of ministry or metron’s are real and significant. The Lord has taught me much regarding them. I believe that it is a very strong Biblical and Kingdom of God truth. It is one which we all must heed or we will continue to cross lines of ministry, authority and responsible influence that are not ours to cross. The fruit of this is to bring reproach upon the Lord, ourselves and our marriages, families, and ministries, etc.
A Field of Ministry is simply that clearly defined area of ministry, authority and responsible influence, that the Lord Jesus has given us, to faithfully and obediently serve in and through, for His greater glory, honor and praise. (See 2Cor 10:13-16)
While I responded in compassion, I was still out of order and therefore, wrong for me to do. We are not free to do whatever we please just because there is an anointing or even opportunity to do so. No! This is all the more reason we truly need the Wisdom of the Lord. God’s Wisdom is the right thing at the right time, and through the right process and procedure.
Ecclesiastes 8:5-6 (NKJV) He who keeps his (the Kings) command will experience nothing harmful; And a wise man’s heart discerns both time and judgment, 6 Because for every matter there is a time and judgment, Though the misery of man increases greatly.
A wise man or woman, discerns both the right time, and the right judgments as to what the proper process or procedure is in any given situation. Wisdom is all about what is proper in timing (When) and the process or procedure (How) of something. It is not just what, but also a when and how. The Lord Jesus had taught me this many years ago, in what I call Fields of Ministry, yet, evidently, I still have to be reminded of this vital truth. It genuinely grieves me that I still need to be reminded, but I rejoice in that the Lord so generously and faithfully is there to correct me as I need it. Thank you my Lord Jesus.
After so long a wait, I need to be all the more careful, as I obviously am vulnerable to crossing lines that are not meant for me to cross, at least not yet. Hunger, excitement, compassion or even desperation isn’t an excuse for me or anyone of us to go ahead and fail to walk out what the Lord has revealed/taught me/us.
Remember Moses? In Numbers 20:7-12, Moses was commanded to speak to the rock, which is a picture of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the waters would flow. However, in the heat of the moment, Moses resorted to God’s earlier word, meant for another time and place, and He struck the rock (Ex 17:1-7). Waters did come forth, however, Moses was rebuked because of it and was cut off from crossing over with God’s people into the Promise Land.
The reason for this judgment against Moses, as the scriptures tell us, was simply because Moses had failed to believe the Lord and thus failed to reveal the Holiness of the Lord before His people. Moses, had fallen back upon what he had previously known and did not remain obedient to what the Lord was now saying to do. This disobedience kept him from crossing over into the current promises of God manifest for his people. In a prophetic and typological sense, Moses had struck the Lord Jesus twice, where as the Lord Jesus was only to be struck once for the sins of the world, not twice. Moses had failed to prophetically walk out the spiritually intended message of the Lord God Almighty in this situation and circumstance with God’s people, because he was caught up in the heat/emotion of the moment, in his flesh and not, in the Holy Spirit’s Wisdom. He took what was Holy, the Word of the Lord, and made it common because of His disobedience.
Even as I allowed my emotional response, and that of those present with me, to encourage me to step out where I should have continued to refrain from doing so, like Moses, I robbed the Pastor of our new church, from experiencing for himself the confirming word of the Lord for that service which I had faithfully shared with him earlier. I took what was not mine to take, and robbed the Pastor of His needed confirming ministry, for which then the Holy Spirit correctly chided me.
Beloved, our calling, gifts, anointing and office/mantle are not ours to do with as we want, when we want or how we want, even when it seems like we possibly should. We may not see it until later, but we will not only rob ourselves of the righteous fruit of obedience but we may also rob others of the Lord’s intended purpose for them in any given situation as hopefully you have seen from above.
Lord Jesus, once again, I ask for your mercy and forgiveness in this situation today, for I have over stepped my boundaries and crossed over into another’s field of ministry, which today was not meant for me, at all. I also, humbly ask you to redeem this situation Lord, for only you can. In spite of my stumbling Father God, Holy Spirit, Lord Jesus Christ, I ask this of you. Thank you!